Last night you woke at midnight, just crying, for no particular reason. After trying to will you back to sleep from my bed I gave in and went to pick you up. You climbed up into my arms and held my neck, pushing your face into the side of mine, bringing your knees up to your chest. You stopped crying, and I just held you and swayed. In the dark, in your room, feeling the weight of you, hearing your breath in my ear.
Your breathing slowed and I shifted you so you were lying across my arms like the tiny baby you were once. You turned your face to my chest and tried to keep your arm around me but you were too sleepy and you let it drop by my side. I could just make out your face in the darkness and I watched you sleeping in my arms, and swayed with you, in your room. I would have stayed there forever with you if I could, but what amazed me more than anything was the weight of you - you're so big now, you weigh as much as a small boy. You're not the tiny thing that I used to hold with one arm, stretching your body the length of my forearm. I wanted to keep holding you, I would have stayed, standing in your room watching you sleep in my arms all night, but you're too heavy now. I put you down slowly, and you murmured and then complained, then rolled over and kept sleeping, leaving me to go back to bed, where I lay awake for a long time thinking of how quickly you changed from baby to boy, how soon the baby days of milk and sleep disappeared, and how heavy you've become.
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Posted by: bobr512_41 | 12/25/2008 at 02:56 AM
Thank you (I think..!)
Posted by: ragazza | 12/25/2008 at 08:52 PM